The New Num[b]

pictures talk

2010-09-12T21:41:00.004+08:00

SIM

2010-08-26T22:11:00.003+08:00

school started, poa = easy, maths = difficult. tml will be intro to econs. pray it wont be as difficult as maths. 2+ years of not studying = noob shit. but on the other hand, the number of chicks are just the right amount i should say. how.... to.... concentrate......... 3yrs.... no... relationship....... =/

why?

2010-08-12T23:22:00.003+08:00

never thought that i would be involved in YOG in any way. when they asked for volunteers i never said a word because i wanted to keep my weekends for you, never did i think we would have ended way before i got pretty much pulled into the ticketing for YOG's opening/closing ceremonies. i thought that by just keeping to myself in the office i wouldnt get asked to do anything. but in the end, this whole week i have just been going around the whole of Singapore delivering the tickets and settling other issues, to the point that we went to NTU. truth is, i was wondering if i would be able to see you, and i really did want to see you, and i did, but you didnt see me thought. ah well, it just made my day to see you so cheerful and happy, and im really happy for you. =) prolly gonna be busy next week also, sigh.. going down to Ritz Carlton tomorrow to set up a YOG ticketing booth, prolly on saturday too(there goes my saturday). zzzzz. well im heading to bed, night all.

im not emo alright. lol.

random

2010-08-11T20:28:00.001+08:00

he said:"what thing?"
she said:"what you said?"

2010-08-07T18:53:00.001+08:00

I dont wanna walk S-O-L-O.

meaningful song

2010-08-04T11:39:00.002+08:00

(女)是否很惊讶讲不出些话
没错我是说你想分手吗
曾给你驯服到就像绵羊
何解会反咬你一下你知吗
(男)回头望伴你走
从来未曾幸福过
赴过汤蹈过火
沿途为何没爱河
下半生陪住你
怀疑快乐也不多
(合)没有心别再拖
好心一早放开我
从头努力也坎坷
通通不要好过
来年岁月那么多
为继续而继续
没有好处还是我
若注定有一点苦楚
不如自己亲手割破
(男)是否不甘心首先给撇下
换了你是我你忍得到吗
捱得过无限次寂寞凌迟
人心态早己看得化也可怕
(女)回头望伴你走
从来未曾幸福过
赴过汤蹈过火
(合)沿途为何没爱河
下半生陪住你
怀疑快乐也不多
没有心别再拖
好心一早放开我
从头努力也坎坷
通通不要好过
来年岁月那么多
为继续而继续
直接不过承认错
若勉强也分到不多
(男)不如什么也摔破
(合)来来来来来来来来来来来来来来来
(合)难捱就无谓再拖
好心一早放开我
从头努力也坎坷
通通不要好过
来年岁月那么多
为继续而继续
没有好处还是我
若注定有一点苦楚
(女)不如自己亲手割破

numbness

2010-07-29T22:26:00.002+08:00

yes miss lee, you were right, im putting on a very strong front. even though i know she's not feeling well i cant care about her, cause i know she has someone to be there for her now. i know she is feeling happy and i feel happy for her as long as she's happy, just like what i had always told her. but its time to move on right? lets forget the past, keep the happy memories and forget the bad ones. NUMB NUMB NUMB NUMB NUMB NUMB.

beefing it up

2010-07-28T20:20:00.002+08:00

my work out equipments are here. gonna beef myself up cause i feel if i cant be fatter, i shall be fitter, much fucking fitter. here are some pics.

ok below pics are abit zi lian but this is to show my situation now, and 2-3 mnths later ill post other pics to see if i have grown fitter. lol. gym in camp has helped me cut off the tummy i acquired in bmt.

stay tuned for 2-3 mnths down the road pics. =)

weird

2010-07-26T10:18:00.003+08:00

scratch that previous post, i dont have to be mad at the girl, i understand her difficulties. we are still friends right? (you know who you are if you read this) =)
i was really pissed yesterday afternoon but at night i totally felt at ease, like i have gone back to the days where i would block my heart from any feelings, the numbness has kicked in, i have become numb again. well gotta clear up the guest room soon, my bench press n its equipment is coming in, ill post a picture for those who are interested to see when its here. lol. FASTER ORD!

the new numb

2010-07-20T21:34:00.001+08:00

well its been 1 week plus since we stopped being a couple, being lovers, even being friends. i cant blame anyone but myself, what i did was way too fucked up. im sorry. at this point of no return, all i can do is to pretend like we didnt meet at all, that should be enough for you, for me to disappear and get out of your life. =) gotten rid of most of the things that reminds me of you, pictures and your clothes. it aint easy, we were together for a year plus still. but like you said its best for the both of us right? this will be probably be the last thing that i can do for you. here's part 1.

Can't describe how much i fucking miss you
All the shit i did just to intentionally lose you
Because baby, i cant give you what you deserve
Cause for you it be the whole universe

Now here's a story about two different people
How they met, it weren't all simple
It was on that faithful night, one in December
What happened then, i'd always remember
We got introduced, acknowledged each other

Our first date, it was weird that time
I asked you out for a movie, to book online
You said you didn't know how, but still did
Really wanted to meet you, was some kinda need
Not the dirty shit, just wanted to see you
Cause for you, wasn't shit i couldn't do

stay tuned for part 2.

meaningful post

2010-07-17T14:44:00.002+08:00

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a god send and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life whether is it for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

I guess I intruded into her life for the REASON part. lol. F-R-E-E-D-O-M as she spells it.

sadly over

2010-07-15T20:41:00.002+08:00

i have nobody i wanna tell this to,so i figured id say it here.its been a very happy,sometimes sad 1yr n 5mnths,many events happened wch changed alot of things.over time i felt that i werent good enuff for u,i felt that u didnt want to meet me at all.we tried n tried but there came a point when u found that i was too restrictive,maybe i was,but it was because i cared n would worry.i said many times when the time came if i didnt ask means i stopped loving.i cant give u the life that u want,the branded,the holidays,drive u around,i even had to get a loan to study.u deserve much better,im glad u took the chance when i asked u to leave.it would be better for u this way.im sorry for the harsh words i said,it was just so it would make u hate me more n forget me even quicker.be it 2 days,2 mnths or 2 yrs,just knw that ill always be here.

updates~~

2009-09-18T21:35:00.005+08:00

im back! been some time since i last blog, i think my blog space is rotting already, i see cob webs like all over, or is it just on my com. pffft. anyways i just turned 21 last friday, go me. go R21 films. =x im glad to have all my friends to celebrate it with me, even though its a simple buffet at my dad's place, the presence of them just makes it worthwhile. thanks all for the red packets and the presents. =) here are some pics.

baby and i with my 3kg bday cake.

my family, my mum, half sis, step mum and dad. lol.

me rachel and my sis.

my ftp mates, baby and i.

my nyp mates, my gf and alvin's gf.

my camp mates.

happiness within.

me, baby, cousin gf and him.

baby and her friend xuan ning(thnx for the camera and your help. =) )

quan jia fu.

partying at rebel on 110909. ze king and ze queen.

baby and i.

well thats all im posting up, more at my fb. been pretty busy in camp lately, kena arrowed by the officers and my sargeant major. zzzz. dunnoe i look too free or they think im too good can do so much. haha. im out.

2009-08-18T21:58:00.000+08:00

totally moodless

confinements confinements

2009-04-26T08:48:00.002+08:00

2nd week in a row and i only get to book out on sunday morning. zzzz. last week was due to weekend guard duty, this week was due to failing of tests and POSSESION OF HANDPHONE AT INAPPROPRIATE TIME. ccb.

Please note that the following servicemen from the 6th ASC (FATA) spec course have been awarded 1 x weekend day confinement due to unsatisfactory performance in tests.

SCT SEAH WEN JUN SHAUN
etc..
etc..

Please note that the following servicemen from the 6th ASC (FATA) spec course have been awarded 1 x weekend day confinement due to possesion of handphone at an inappropriate time.

SCT SEAH WEN JUN SHAUN

kns! oh well at least i still have my baby. she came over last sunday morning to surprise me when i reached home, buttt, as a very observant person, i realised that the pot of soup boiling on the stove wasnt what my mum normally used, so something was amiss. when i came into my room, after opening the window, she came in and hugged me. i was so touched, cause all along she told me she was at home and on the way and i was getting ready to go down and pick her. as for today, she woke up at 6 20 just to come and meet me. who wakes up this early on a sunday when they can sleep till their butts fry. haha. i love her so... at least i dont have any more confinements or punishment. =x nxt sat would be jac jac's 21st bday celebration, will try to be there. lol. im out, peace.

missing you

2009-04-11T16:21:00.003+08:00

been some time since i last blogged, busy with NS and of course spending whatever free time i have with my baby. speaking bout my baby, she's now in Japan enjoying herself, leaving me alone in Singapore. =( went to send her off in yesterday in the morning, i almost teared when i waved goodbye(weird cause that has never happened to me before), but i controlled it, after reaching home, i couldnt control it and cried a little before i went back to bed. =s slacked at home till 9 plus before heading out to meet my friends for thai disco-ing, they ordered johnnie walker and a bottle of chivas, total cost around $360, i only shared for the johnnie walker, cause being a good boy, i dont drink. =o the singers there were pretty hot, some of the hostess or whatever you call them were pretty hot too. oh well, after that we went to geylang for supper, walked around the streets.. i didnt get approached while the others did! dunnoe is good or bad. haha. sigh, i miss you so much baby.

have you ever missed someone so much,
all i want now is to feel her touch,
dont ever leave for so long again,
cause all i feel now is emptiness and pain.

updates

2009-03-08T11:35:00.004+08:00

booked out pretty late on friday night, due to outfield and an AAR after that, didnt manage to meet baby. zzzz, we were both tired and she was already at home, so she said id see her first thing in the morning. ended up we met about 1700+. =x she said she let me sleep longer. LOL. dunnoe true or not. =p headed to town to look for her Oscar's night dinner gown. i now realise its so freaking hard to look for a long dress that sweeps the floor wherever you go. haha. ajisen for dinner, then went to meet the 4e1 peeps, together with jac jac. went to bar stop, somewhere along killiney road, 1st time i was there, ordered mango cooler(which didnt taste like mango..) and baby ordered lychee martini. i still dont drink, as always.. haha.

mango cooler and lychee martini.

baby and i.

tong and guang.

baby and ii.

tong, baby and jac jac.

baby and me iii.

baby and me.
decided to go sing K after chillin, walked to dhoby ghaut before they decided on watching slumdog millionaire. was a pretty interesting show that lasted for 2hrs+. now i know why it won so many oscars. was walking out from PS when i received an sms from junying asking if i was at PS, she actually saw baby in the toilet. Singapore is really so small huh, chatted for abit before heading home. damn i have lack of sleep. zzzzzzzzz.

postinggg

2009-02-22T01:33:00.007+08:00

went to sentosa yesterday, supposed to go there for tanning, ended up raining cats and dogs. =/

baby and i.

camwhored in the shelter when it was raining.

i look abit gayish here. lol.

after running in the rain to go shower, on the way back in the tram.

went vivo to shop for abit and met my cousin and his gf. bought a river island polo tee. went home to shower and change after abit. caught Outlander after dinner with the 4E1 guys. had a small fight with baby, luckily its settled already. =o the show is about 3.5/5 stars for me.

Tiff and Co rings(kinda blur still but abit clearer than the last time)

blur picture taken today after meeting baby at novena to go shopping at bugis. didnt manage to buy anything, since it was raining we decided to catch another movie, He's just not that into you. pretty amusing and truthful movie about guys and girls in and out of relationships, recommended for couples to watch(if after 1-2 months you guys havent slept together, ditch the girl.. =x JUST KIDDING. lol. dont do it i just copied this sentence from the show.) booking in tomorrow due to 2 days of hard work last week in camp, CO decided to give us half day off. SHIOK.

i heart you manyy manyy.

updates after 2 months

2009-02-15T23:44:00.004+08:00

sup all, been quite some time since i last updated my blog, lots to say, but lazy. haha. as some of you might know, im now attached to my baby. pictures in facebook.

passed out from SISPEC yesterday, after the 28km march, booked out, came home to get ready to head out to meet baby. mum was so thoughtful, knowing i got confined, she helped me get flowers and valentine cakes. =)

met baby at wisma, went to get T&CO couple rings, pics of it below.

me trying to tie the ribbon back.

a little unglam, but the box covers it. haha.

ze couple ring.

went for lunch with my dad's family, my mum and my baby. funny huh how my mum could go eat with my step-mum. lol. after that went to tampines mall for a movie and some shopping. caught Underworld: Rise of the Lycans, a so-so show. after that continued shopping, didnt get anything from there though. headed back to town and managed to get 2 pairs of shoes and a wallet.

lacoste and pedro shoes, wallet from braun buffel.

wallet bought by ma baby. =) XOXO

gotta book in at my new unit, khatib camp by 0745. shucks. will update soon.

updates

2008-12-21T17:40:00.007+08:00

went to catch junying's performance at ngee ann on friday night, same place, going as a different role. dont know what i mean, dont ask. =p
pictures.

me and junying. (damn i think i look handsome here. =x)

ah pui, tong, jy and me.
sentosa yesterday with the 4E1 group. met at toa payoh before heading to vivo for brunch at Superdog. as usual, the late comers are jac and ah tong. lol. pics..

all of us, i look so pale here. jeezzzzz.. lol.

candid shot of me and robin.

another shot with pose.

played open number, wayne kana, so digging a hole to bury him inside.

i just helped to cover him up. haha.

while digging, jac took a pic of 2 butts in the background. tsk tsk. pervert jac.

we were adding the finishing touches.

headed to town for movie Ip man, bought the 2340 tickets cause the others were either too front or sold out. went to eat Fish & Co before deciding to go to e2max. played table soccer. there were music in the background, we were literally dancing and playing, could say we were fucking high just by playing, been some time since i had so much fun. sigh..

3 a side.

them posing after they scored a goal.

happy at the 1st game they won. LOL.

seriously concentrating on the game. we shall not lose!

jac act cute, but tong the camera man blurred the shot. lol.

caught the show at 2340, not a bad show, rating it 4/5 stars.

shiokomato, all i want for christmas is to be able to see and talk to you. =)

xiang's 21st birthday

2008-12-16T16:24:00.002+08:00

ah pui act cute.

me with my piece of cake.

the cakesss..

kill ah tong!

bday boy and me.

pui, tong, me, wayne, jac, xiang and robin.

me and wayne.

wayne and xiang.

THE JEWEL BOX.. and me.

me acting cute with ah tong. (ok i know abit disgusting but who cares? =) )

me and wayne.

me and jacjac.

the signature move.

I MISS YOU. OH YES I DO. =x

what might have been

2008-12-15T16:10:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the 14th of december
it would have been 4 years if i didnt fuck up
but i did, apparently =(
about 9 mnths have passed
would be lieing to say if i have gotten over it
and to say that i didnt care anymore
thats why i call occasionally, just to chit chat
to know that you are doing great, is good news to me itself
wanted to talk more last night, but i was tongue-tied
but i could see that you look happy, so i didnt say more

if only ah pui had told me earlier, but what he said makes sense, if he had told me earlier, i would just shrug it off. ah well.

bbq on thur

2008-12-14T22:27:00.003+08:00

yours truly. =)

jac, shu feng and xue jing.

ah pui, me and ah tong.

3 gays. =x

tong and me.

jac and me.

ah pui and me.
pics only, lazy to add text. zzzz.

nice playing

2008-12-08T14:26:00.000+08:00

check it out. =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bDxBdHq7bso

gogogo! support.

sat booking out

2008-12-07T02:13:00.006+08:00

booked out on sat morning, cabbed home with my duffer bag and field pack. had to bring everything back home to prepare for POP. took a short nap before getting ready to go down town to meet up with my pri sch friends. met them at somerset coffee club, 1st time i been there. after having our dinner, they wanted to find a place to chill and drink, so we headed to a few places before settling down at clarke quay's Highlander. took a few pics..

dunnoe the names of the drinks, but the 1 on the left is fucking not worth it, $10+ for like 10ml. zzzz. i didnt order any drinks btw. lol.

shi ying and jia yi.

shi ying with her super high heel.

me, shi ying, edalene and jiayi.

me.

shi ying, ed and jiayi.

jia yi with his shack face.
dinner later at night with the 4e1 group, guang's 1st bookout, thnx to the holiday. lol.

2008-11-30T15:52:00.001+08:00

1st off, gotta apologise to jon and ty for ps-ing you guys on friday night, was really tired, moment i reached home i fell asleep. lol. went to IT fair on sat with wayne, xiang and robin. walked around then went to bugis to slack for awhile, free show for abit at food junction, only the guys know wat i mean. ;) after that went to lavender for a friend's father funeral wake, condolences to you wen ling, take care. headed to orchard after having dinner at a food court nearby, slacked at mc cafe, took a few pics with wayne's camera(finally a botak pic.. lol.) i think i grow fatter liao sia, looking at the pics.. omg.. tummy.. go away... cant really blame, after eating i sleep, after sleeping wake up and eat, while the other bunk mates are doing their extra training, i train in sleeping. LOL. caught Quarantine at 1:25am with jac, tong, xiang, ah pui and robin. the way the movie was filmed is something like Cloverfield, didnt really like it. =/ pics below.

my friends say i look gay in this pic.

i think i look fat here.. =x

2 more weeks to POP

2008-11-23T16:59:00.003+08:00

well well, im pretty much alive and kicking. 2 more weeks to POP. left with IPPT and the route marches, cant wait. who's coming to my graduation parade? lol. played soccer at nyp yesterday morning, only played for awhile cause guang had a bad cramp, i think he chao geng.. =x went lunch with my dad and his family, went to cafe cartel and then headed to amk to get some psp games, my sis is giving me 1 of her 2 psp.. =)) (dont worry nxt time you grow up i sure buy lots of beautiful clothes for you.. haha.) went to timbre with robin and his friends last night, ate some pizzas and i drank a drink called 'shirley temple', no alcohol, mixture of i forgotten what. LOL. madagascar 2 after that, i think the other 2 NS guys slept during the show while i finished it. =s

ahh.. smitten by her. hoping to see her again soon.

booking in night

2008-11-09T16:31:00.003+08:00

booking in soon to serve BMT for another month before i POP. another short scene which i find funny, happened during the last night of field camp. it was very cold during the night so this is what happened. here goes..

friend(name witheld):"shaun.. shaun.. shaun.." (i think they been calling me for quite some time)
me:"作么"
friend:"shaun.. shaun.. shaun.. 有没有solid fuel"
me:"你要你拿去"(thought he wanted to start fire to keep warm)
friend:"shaun.. 救我, 很冷"
me:"你冷管我屁事"(my chinese sucks, dunnoe correct or not)
friend:"shaun, 救我"

well i got up and then started a fire, a few came to help and we kept warm next to the fire, didnt really get much sleep but who cares, booking out the next day anyway. lol. went out to have dinner at la mei zi last night with the 4E1 group, where were the la meis?! didnt see any.. =x after that headed to dempsey hill for ben and jerry's, had smoothie instead of the normal ice cream selection, ah pui suggested going to sing, so a few of us agreed. called miss giogio to see if she wanted to sing, who knew she was singing when i called her, still, she came down, so touched.. LOL. sang till 0230hrs. prolly heading down to sing again nxt week with my bunk mates, they suddenly feel like singing. =s

miss LJY, if you happen to read this, i NS 2 months liao leh, you say not like i never book out, i book out so many times you not free. =/ ok lah i know you have your own life now, busy with work and stuff, so i understand(and this time i mean it, wont be a repeat of last time =p). still got 1 years plus till i ORD, so cannot be all the bookouts you not free right? haha. ok gonna go pack my stuff now.

peculiar incident

2008-11-07T21:04:00.004+08:00

a very strange thing happened to me today, i was approached by a gay.. it happened this way i was in the changing room after swimming and this guy kept looking at me when i was half naked. after changing i went to get something to eat before heading home, he was outside the pool waiting, i thought he was waiting for someone to pick him up or something, so i just went off, i was on the phone later when i noticed someone was following quite close to me, after hanging up the phone, he approached me... convo as follow.

him:"hi, can we be friends"
me:"is this some kind of joke"
him:"no i just think you're cute"(wtf i wanted to whack him already)
me:"are you trying to be funny"
him:"no i just want to be friends, are you in BMT"
me:"yes"
him:"which company"
me:"leopard"
him:"oh leopard just finished field camp right"(cb how you know sia)
him:"do you live near here, is there anybody at your house"
me:"why you ask so much"
him:"can you have fun with me"(ccb i very dulan already)
me:"im not gay, you better stop this nonsense before i turn nasty"
him:"oh ok, so sorry"

wtf sia, if girl say i cute nvm lah, but ccb is a guy leh, 1st time somemore, knn, if i wasnt eating my cup corn i think i would have punched him. omg. do i have the gay look? no right!! zzzzz.. oh well, caught 007 quantum of solace today, not a bad show, worth the $6 student price. LOL.. had white dog cafe for dinner at vivo, so tired..... zzzzzzzzz.....

some updates

2008-10-26T23:11:00.002+08:00

i aint dead yet!! lol
went straight to gio's birthday chalet on friday night after bookout(see i good or not =p)
happy to meet up with some friends
although i didnt really talk to 'her', or should i say didnt even talk at all
i knew what i was getting into in the 1st place
thats why i wrote that song =o
oh yea i wrote 1 in BKK, didnt find the need to post it then, but now its different, stay tuned for it
met up with some of 4E1 on sat for wei guang's birthday dinner
dined at bliss in punggol park
headed to dbl o after
fucking boring, waste of money.. zzzzzzzz
slacked at home today, booking in tomorrow
field camp next week, prepared and good to go! lol
good night all, 23 30 lights out for me =x

no shit

2008-10-12T02:49:00.002+08:00

met up with a couple of bunk mates today for a movie. talked about some stuff, oh well.
dunnoe what the fuck's wrong with me anyway.
met jac and ah pui for k box after that, sang some emo songs,
knn make me more emo. lol.
only they know why im emo.
after this period of time, i thought i had forgotten,
but all i did was put up a barrier to what i felt inside.
its funny how i keep memories in my wallet,
when i had deleted everything else.
fucking contradicting,
when right beside my laptop is the heartshaped box with the little blue glove with a letter J sewn on it.(using laptop because desktop crashed or something)
ah well, im prolly emo cause i got not much hair on my head. haha.
and i hope she doesnt read this also. =x

mixed up

2008-10-10T22:49:00.002+08:00

time to move on again
bunkmates said some stuff
thought about some stuff
read about some stuff
fucked up
dont lie to yourself, it will only hurt more
go back if you can
goodbye for good

feelings

2008-10-05T16:29:00.002+08:00

you were my motivation, and still am
you kept me going, and i'll endure cause of you
i believe every word you say or said, even if it werent true, i still believe
i meant it when i told you if you had to leave, dont let me know, just go
i'll always remember you, and still think of you frequently
if you ever need someone to talk to, sms me, ill call you during my admin time =x
again i wanna tell you, ive never lied to you, and never will
hopefully things work out for you, and you'll always be the cheerful and pretty lady in my eyes

2008-10-04T16:52:00.002+08:00

I'm thinking about you
Every day and night
This feeling about you
It feels so right
Every waking moment
Is a lifetime
When I'm without you
I lose my mind

But girl I know in my heart that we weren't meant to be
We are from two different worlds, its so easy to see

How I try to explain
The things I hide inside
No matter how I try
You'll still say goodbye
When its time to go
Girl don't let me know

The life that I'l living
With each passing day
Girl you been forgiving
Of my childish ways
The thought of you leaving
It breaks my heart
But I'll get through this
Even if I'm torn apart

But girl I know in my heart that we weren't meant to be
We are from two different worlds, its so easy to see

How I try to explain
The things I hide inside
No matter how I try
You'll still say goodbye
When its time to go
Girl don't let me know

And now its come to a certain point
Theres no turning back
Unknowingly, I fell too deep
But this love I cannot keep

How I try to explain
The things I hide inside
No matter how I try
You'll still say goodbye
When its time to go
Girl don't let me know

2nd bookout, really wanted to meet up with you. oh well.

new shit

2008-09-29T15:51:00.002+08:00

1st bookout

2008-09-28T19:29:00.002+08:00

1st bookout up till now is staying at home. lol. mum's at a relative's wedding dinner, so its just me and rocky. oh i miss him so much, my lovable dog.. lol.
for those who are at tekong, im L(leopard) company platoon 3 section 4, come look for me if you have free time. haha.
well ill end here for now, stay tuned for my botak pictures. =)

ill miss u guys

2008-09-12T01:01:00.003+08:00

thnx to all who wished me. really appreciate it. will miss all of u, and thats frm the bottom of my heart.
stay tune for my botak picture!

take care of yourself, wateva you decide, ill always support you.

happy 20th to myself

2008-09-11T00:40:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to me.
happy birthday to me.
happy birthday to meeee.
happy birthday to me.

oh man, where are all my friends? =/

i can take pain and suffering, but i cant bear to see people close to me get hurt, even worse when i was the one that hurt them.

updates

2008-09-10T16:29:00.009+08:00

pics from BKK trip 29.08.09.

bronson and gio.

me and jiahui.

had lunch at hongkong noodle.
day 2. floating market

jatuchak at night.

day 3.
jatuchak in the morning.

kite flying later in the noon.

they can do it.

we can do it too!!

bronson's bed.

my bed. see the difference? the only reason it looks like that is cause jiahui just finished her jumping exercise on it. =x

pay 100 baht to take picture on this sacred pedestal. lol.

200 baht for 2 passengers.

ko'ed on the 3rd night.
i shall update more on it later, gonna nap now, very tired..

well said

2008-09-07T17:43:00.002+08:00

ok she's poured out her grievances.
i finally know all the pain she felt.
but theres nothing i can do now.
nor would she want me to do anything.
glad she's feeling happy now, thanks for taking off this small worry from my mind before i go NS.

moodless

2008-09-05T12:13:00.002+08:00

whoever can guess the title of the songs to these lyrics will get a prize!

i somehow know that she wouldnt call
but im ready to take the fall
now i finally have seen it all

you, doing that thing you do
breaking my heart into a million pieces
like you always do

im not a perfect person
i never meant to do those things to you
and so i have to say before i go
that i just want you to know

but instead, i kept my tears inside
cause i knew if i started i'd keep crying
for the rest of my life with you
i finally built up the strength to walk away
dont regret it but i still live with the side effects

dont wanna be a fool for you
just a player in your game for two

shut up, shut up, shut up
don't wanna hear it
get out, get out, get out
get out of my way
step up, step up, step up
you'll never stop me

you're way too beautiful girl
thats why it'll never work
you'll have me suicidal, suicidal
when you say its over
nothing you say today
is gonna bring me down

had enough of my nonsense
disgusted by my presence
sure you'll be happy at my absence

pre-birthday dinner

2008-09-04T13:49:00.008+08:00

i will be holding a pre birthday dinner mini celebration for myself this sat, 6th september, 7pm at a zi char near my home. it will also be some sort of farewell before i go to NS dinner. =/ i have smsed and so far the few that have confirmed are(pls let me know if you cant make it at the last min):

wayne
wei xiang
yan jun
jac jac
alvin(and his chipmunk)
junying
robin
anqi
bronson
shirley
john
hannah

others have yet to reply me, but im hoping you can get back to me asap, cause i need to book table, in case. lol. and kindly let me know if i have missed out anybody. =)
some of you i have invited face to face, but if you are still angry at me and dont want to turn up, i am totally fine with it.
the meeting time will be 6 45pm at toa payoh interchange, i really hope to see all the invited guests there.

nobody will know what i hide inside.

back

2008-09-02T19:58:00.003+08:00

im back from BKK.
didnt buy as much as last time.
was fun, took quite alot of pics, but all in jiahui's camera.
shall upload them soon when i get them.

if its meant to be, it will be

2008-08-27T11:38:00.004+08:00

(EDITED)*
ripped this off someone's blog. sept is my month of birth btw. lol.

Sept
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

i dont get the part, 'enjoys to make love'. =x but the rest are pretty me as far as i know. haha.

that's what she said to me, ill keep that in mind. i dedicate the song 'Nothing's gonna change my love for you' to her. today will be the last day i get to drive my Nissan Sunny, cause my dad's gonna come collect it tomorrow afternoon for scrapping. goodbye Sunny, i'll remember all the close encounters that i almost lost my life but you pulled me through, like telling me when danger was nearby. i'll miss you, as much as im gonna miss driving. but scrapping my car will bring along the memories that i've had in it, mostly happy ones, especially with you, but i shall keep them in my heart(omg when have i become so weak, well actually i got 2 sides, 1 is the kind and caring me, the other 1 is better left somewhere deep inside me). =)

anybody that reads this wanting to tour around singapore endlessly with me tonight, feel free to drop me an sms or give me a call. i wanna drive as much as i can before tomorrow's noon. =/

monday very blue

2008-08-25T17:07:00.003+08:00

exactly 4 days till my BKK trip, 17 days till my birthday, and 18 days till i enlist for NS. i'm gonna have a pre-birthday celebration dinner most probably on the 6th or 7th, please keep your days free as i might be inviting you. lol. of course you can choose not to come. =) been feeling very tired lately, maybe not enough sleep, i dont know. thinking of the pile of clothes i have to iron later makes it worse. lol.

you asked me jokingly if i'd miss you if i dont see you for days:
yes i would. and i aint joking.
you said you still believed in true love:
are you willing to give me a chance?
i know i told you i'd get over it:
but i cant, i just cant, its not that easy.

i want you to know: with everything, i wont let this go
these words are my heart and soul
i'll hold on to these moment, you know
cause i'd bleed my heart out to show, that i wont let go..

我已不知不觉的爱上了你.

close shave

2008-08-25T01:24:00.002+08:00

i almost ran over a cat on my way home just now, it suddenly dashed out of nowhere, luckily i swerved abit and it backed off before running across the road again. phew.. after that encounter, i'm never gonna speed on small roads again. =x
如果你真是有蓝魔之泪，我一定会握着它说我爱你，而它一定会发光，但发了光，又如何呢?..

i drive myself crazy

2008-08-21T11:12:00.001+08:00

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do...

无可告的秘密

2008-08-17T21:41:00.001+08:00

i finally gave my dog his bolster. lol.
想人家，却无法说出来。没关系，我相信，只要她快乐就好.

孤单汉子.

mandarin post

2008-08-15T20:41:00.003+08:00

没想到, 我会用华文来blog. 最近发生了一件坏事, 令我们几个有点误会，而现在我们的友情也慢慢消失，但是，我真的不想放弃，应为认识你们是我这几个月来最开心的一件事。尤其是你，每当我见到你，和你在一起，我觉得心里很舒服，而渐渐地喜欢上你，虽然我知道这永远会是一厢情愿的事，但是我还是笨笨的喜欢上你。
我是不会后悔有这个感觉。不能和你在一起，但直要你开心，我会替你开心，无论发生任何事，我会支持你的。我只希望你开心，我就满足了。而是你，如果你喜欢人家，就跟他说吧..
每当你sms或打给我，我都会觉得一点开心，无论是好事还是坏事都无所谓.
你是风沙的怒你是断吼。
你是断崖的坚守。

thoughts aloud

2008-08-14T09:30:00.003+08:00

hi,

wanna know what i was thinking when i found out i liked her?
i knew we would never be together, but i was happy enough to be anywhere with her.
how could i compete with others, i got no looks, no money and all i ever do is make girls angry. i know she isnt materialistic, but still i feel lousy.
even when she hits or pinches me, whether its my fault or not, i dont care, as long as she feels better after making me her punching bag.

cant wait for my trip to BKK with them, wonder what else im gonna buy there, since i just went there 2 months ago. im so gonna do whatever it takes to enjoy myself there, cause i wont be able to go overseas for 2 years. =/

wanna know what i was thinking after i told her the truth?
i was ready for the negative. pessimistic? nah, just know the answer i guess. i thought of being a coward and to avoid her, but then again, we could still be friends, maybe even good friends. so all i can do now, is to enjoy her company until i enlist.

bye.

ah pui's bday preparations

2008-08-13T11:15:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION ALL AH PUI'S/YAN JUN'S INVITED GUESTS TO HIS BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION THIS SAT. HE HAS ARRANGED FOR THE VENUE TO BE AT WHAMPOA DRIVE(WHERE THE FUCK IS THAT I DONT KNOW, HE SAY NEAR TOA PAYOH). HE ASKED ME TO GATHER EVERYBODY, SO PLEASE BE CO-OPERATIVE AND MEET AT 6 45 THIS SATURDAY, 16 AUGUST 2008 AT TOA PAYOH INTERCHANGE. I WILL MOST PROBABLY BE DRIVING MY POK POK CAR DOWN. FIRST 4 THAT SENDS ME A TAG OR SMS GET TO RIDE FOR FREE, THE OTHERS HAVE TO TAKE CAB. PLEASE DO NOT BE LATE BECAUSE IF YOU'RE LATE, THEN AH PUI WILL HAVE LESSER GUESTS. =X EXCUSES LIKE 'OH I MEETING MY GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIND' WILL NOT BE TOLERATED, SCHEDULE THEM FOR ANOTHER DAY, EXCUSES LIKE 'I NEED TO STAY HOME' WILL ALSO NOT BE TOLERATED(ONLY I CAN USE THAT EXCUSE!). SO REMEMBER, SATURDAY 645 TOA PAYOH INTERCHANGE. I HAVE NO IDEA WHO HE INVITED AS WELL SO WHOEVER READS THIS AND HE INVITED YOU HIMSELF, PLEASE LEAVE ME A TAG SO I KNOW YOU'RE GOING. THANK YOU.

p.s for every person that i gather i expect a $2 commission, thank you ah pui.

useful tips

2008-08-12T10:35:00.000+08:00

Tips on how to forget a girl and how to adapt
- By Shaun

if you ever had your heart broken by girls, or would like to prepare yourself for the upcoming heartbreak, you would find these tips useful.

Tip #1: if after everything you tried failed and you still can't get the girl, delete her msn contact and save her hp number as 'DO NOT ANSWER, TROUBLE'. erase all traces that links to her, even her friends.

Tip #2: if after following Tip #1 and you still cant get over her, find a nice place with water, preferably sentosa as there are hot babes in bikinis over there, tie a huge rock to your ankle, walk into the water to the point where your head is fully submerged and stay there. good bye.

Tip #3: if you get saved while doing Tip #2, pray that a big booby bikini chio bu did it. if a life guard saved you, drown him 1st, then repeat Tip #2.

Tip #4: if you and your current girlfriend have been experiencing problems, tendency leading to a break-up is eminent, there is no way to avoid it because... there is just no way, so get ready for the worst, go clubbing, go around flirting, get to know more girl-friends before she initiates it. at least you have other options.

Tip #5: if you arent rich or handsome and cant follow tip #4, do what i did, buy a sandbag, hang it in a spacious area where you can punch and kick like nobody's business, if you have a slippery floor texture, prepare some mats, or fall on the hard ground if you slip. it will hurt, trust me.

Tip #6: if your parents do not allow you to buy a sandbag, try the screaming method, scream at them, they might eventually allow you to buy one.

Tip #7: if another guy stole your gf, theres nothing better than to let him keep her, cause most probably he will suffer the same fate, since the girl is a bitch and will most likely run away again.

Tip #8: you can always adapt the F&T method if you are capable enough. but i wont recommend it, you might get sexually transmitted diseases.

Tip #9: always keep this is mind, women are from venus, men are wrong.

Tip #10: if you want to save yourself from all the heartbreaks from girls, become a gay, and join my GAY CLUB!

the above are meant for entertainment purposes only, do not take these advices seriously as you might really fall and hurt yourself or get sexually transmitted diseases. lol. this post isnt meant to intimidate anyone and theres no sarcasm or pun intended, its to make people laugh. im just bored lah.

double celebrations

2008-08-10T23:18:00.003+08:00

first off, lemme wish tan zi juan and my grandma happy birthday in advance! happy 21st for zi juan and happy 70th for my ah ma!

from the back, wayne, wei guang, yan jun, me, ah tong, jac jac, zi juan and zi juan's friend who i dunnoe her name. =/
secondly, im 3/4 towards being botak. lol.

ok lah i zi lian i know. zzzz. cannot is it?!

follow my heart to go for the impossible, i dont think i can do that. i dont have the confidence, courage i do have but i dont think its enough, other than courage, everything else is a zero for me. so just standing by watching her smile and laugh, and staying happy is sufficient for me.

2008-08-05T10:35:00.003+08:00

images from the stomp event Youthphoria on 26/7.

i look pretty beng in the pics, but hey, i got to get close to jamie yeo. beat that! =p of course me being up there was after getting saboed. damn you...damn you! i got stage fright lah, im a very shy person de loh......

jiahui's most unglam pic, see she standing like some ah lian. tsk tsk.

and of course, theres bronson, who won the camera(wch ended up with jiahui anyway). lol.

there is seriously nothing to do at work, been like this for 3 days already.. argh. boring boring.. one day i shall take a pic of my work desk and upload it. haha. ok gonna go find someplace to slack now. bye.

2008-08-03T20:48:00.004+08:00

pics taken by digicam last wed after phuture.

that isnt my bag by the way. bronson, jiahui and me.
pretty weird, in 2 days, both days i got people telling me they see girls that i know, on sat someone called me to ask me if i had a friend name jiahui(embarrassing but i had to tell him yes.. lol j/k.) who worked at bishan singtel. i knew she was working but didnt know where, then he told me a joke, he said he saw a chio bu that looked very familiar, so he called me and asked, he said chio bu liao, so how to deny i dont know leh.. HAHA. then today i got an sms, ironic that both of these guys that told me are my poly classmates and we used to skip lessons just to go play. =x well he told me that he saw someone that i havent seen in a few months already, cant recall how long but i think its been quite some time. oh well got nothing else to update.
i wanna watch money no enough 2, anybody else wanna watch? =)

2008-08-03T05:11:00.003+08:00

its pretty early or late in both sense to be blogging now, but i just want to get some things off my chest. gambling, smoking, drinking, flirting, are a few bad traits among men. but i suck at drinking, dont smoke, and whenever i gamble i end up losing, so i guess only flirting is left, and i seem to have become a guy that flirts, ok maybe not a flirt, cause i treat all girl friends of mine good(*looks around*, i do right?!). i have a confession to make, that is theres a girl i like now. =o lol not really much of a confession lah. haha. its just that im afraid to fall in love again, cause its either i get hurt, or i end up hurting the other party, and most of the time, i get hurt!!! =( oh well i still have lots of time to find a girl that would like me for me, dont mind my appearance and dont mind having to ride in an old car(for now). but hey, ive got a cute dog ok!!

i thought that if you could have waited, i would have sorted things out. it seems that you have moved on, so im happy for you.

2008-08-01T16:29:00.004+08:00

*Tag Replies*

jun: hey!.. im applying for singles' club dude.. HAHA

reply: pls leave your name, contact number and email if you are interested. LOL. =o

jun: and of cos.. i also dont let a girl noe that i like her becos im afraid to lose a fren too~ =D reply: if a girl avoids you after knowing you like her, then id wait, either that or flirt around. =x (ok im j/k on the flirting part, pls do not follow my advice. HAHA)

gio: last photo?! LOL! since when sia. why? preparing to mia again? i guess you wont bahs. if wld also not you. hahas!

reply: miss giogio, no mia around here. who go mia will get hunted down, raped and killed. =x

jiahui: can i apply for singles club? hahas.

reply: yes you can but you have to pay an initiation fee which is $888. still want to join? =p anyway i want the pics taken by ur digicam that night. GIMME GIMME!

its friday, and theres nothing for me to do.. at all.. no shipment of goods, not even date entry, ive just been idling around since start of work. sitting down and surfing web, enjoying the air con. at least got $$$ to take. haha. if im not wrong today is the start of the chinese 7th month, so everyone should be a guai kia and go home before 12am... or make it 8pm, due to my super guainess(and the fact that i dont want to sleep on the streets cause my mum almost threw me out the other day). =o friends gonna be working on weekends, so im gonna stay at home and be a mama's boy, 'help' with the housework and stuff.

oh yea, im thinking of creating a single's club, anybody interested pls tag me so i can see how many would want to have fun. haha. positions currently open:

Vice-Chairman:

Treasurer: Organiser:

Public Relations:

Human Resource:

cant think of any more positions that this little club might need. LOL. current criteria for this club is that applicants must be SINGLE, NOT AVAILABLE, FUN LOVING, DARING, for girls has to be PRETTY AND SEXY, guys ANYTHING OSO CAN. LOL. ok very lame, ending work soon, bye. =p

2008-07-31T15:00:00.002+08:00

clubbed last night, dont have any pics with me, shall post them when i get them from the others.

Q: how many of you gets abit pissed when your girl-friends go gaga over handsome guys and be like 'ooo, shuai ge go ask number.'?
Comment: i do get pissed, wondering when will i have this kinda effects on girls, which will probably be like... NEVER!
i feel so pathetic when that happens, but its ok, i believe that out of 10 girls, at least theres a 1/2 girl that would like a guy for who he is, not what he has, namely: looks, money, car and so on. so the other 9 1/2 are like... sigh.. ok i sound sexist here but of course i know a few who love their bf for who they are, thats if i can find a friend that is attached, cause currently im like running a singles' club. haha. to apply for membership pls leave a tag on my board, lots of privileges and fun activities await you. LOL. ok lame im just bored at work pls forgive me. currently im back to being the quiet and shy guy that i once was, no courage to let a girl know how i really feel. ok another question.
Q: how many of you have ever liked a girl but you dare not let her know because you're afraid you might lose a friend?
Comment: i have, quite a few times actually, and the fact that i only had 1 relationship(ok shut up i know alot of you are cursing me. shhhh. =p), means that im kinda lousy with girls. i need help. =x
well now all i can do is wait and see what comes my way, since im enlisting soon anyway. time to find somewhere to sleep. shall update when i get the pictures, stay tuned!

2008-07-30T00:05:00.002+08:00

another pic from the sentosa trip on sat.

see the white light? we're in heaven. lol. i shall name this pic, '3 hunks and a pig'. LOL. ok im just kidding.
went to catch P2 tonight at cine, gruesome show, yucks. but not very interesting, i still prefer the director's former show, 'The Hills Have Eyes'. after that went to starbucks to chill n talk. well nothing else i guess, time to go to bed. work tml. =/ good night everyone.

2008-07-28T20:11:00.005+08:00

27/7
went to catch The Dark Knight at cine, but took neoprint before that. here it is.

ive been troubled lately, and today i found out something that makes it worse. im in this predicament due to my own foolishness, i really dont know what i can do right now, i guess ill just go with the flow again. im really really vexed right now, but i have to go through it alone, hopefully things work out for me.

2008-07-27T16:49:00.005+08:00

26/7
pics from sentosa trip. went with BIGS, alvin and anqi.

jiahui and me. going up the luge carrier, or wateva you call it.

anqi and alvin.

alvin, gio, jiahui, me and anqi.

all of us.

jiahui and gio.

same.

gio and jiahui reaching much later than us.

gio and me.

random shot by bronson.

gio, bronson, jiahui, me and anqi.

BIGS.

ok bye. gonna rot at home for the rest of today, tomorrow and the coming days(other than work of course).

2008-07-24T21:19:00.004+08:00

bronson's birthday celebration at zouk last night with gio, jaihui and alvin.

bronson and jiahui.

gio and bronson.

we were supposed to act like gays, but instead got this candid shot.

id post more, but im feeling kinda down today, things just happen, so ill just cope with it, go with the flow. my mind is in a state of confusion right now, and nothing seems to work. ill tide over this period, i will.

if you could be mine.

2008-07-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

as promised, pics from bronson's bday celebration.

say hello to barney.

omg barney what u looking at?!! =x

bronson, gio and winnie the balloon.

bronson, jiahui and cookie monster balloon.

bronson, me and barney the balloon.

messy balloons.

isnt this much better, told jiahui to hide behind to hold the balloon. lol.

2008-07-22T10:34:00.002+08:00

blogging again at work. sick at the moment, flu with slight cough, on and off sneezing. ugh..
18/7
shall start on last fri, met up with BIG for dinner, non of them could decide so they asked me to decide. so, took them to toa payoh lorong 8 for dinner(yea im always stuck at toa payoh but i seriously dunnoe where else to eat). jiahui bluff us say she going MOS, tsk tsk. but i must say, when nobody looks for me, im so bored, but if i have appointments, they come in numbers. lol. old colleague asked me go bugis, BIG asked me go dinner, jac asked me go play mj, then TY called me when i was having dinner say want go chill. lastly and SURPRISINGLY, anqi called at 12 something ask me if i got go club. LOL. but i was at TTSH along with jiahui and gio making a birthday card for bronson, yes, i was there, sounds rare that i would make something for someone but oh well that was in the past. haha. left around 5, sent Ipig home before heading home and going to bed at 6am!!
19/7
woke up at about 3pm, slacked before getting ready to meet jiahui at TTSH, waited for gio to go get some food and to da bao for gio's sis. they decided to get this cookie monster balloon for bronson as part of his birthday gift, and of course, i got asked to hold it, was so paiseh lah, girls walk past me say cookie monster. =x walked back to TTSH and miss wee decided to buy another balloon, this time its barney, not long later, miss lim decided to buy another 1, so each of us can carry one to bronson's birthday buffet. had to stuff all 3 balloons into the car, had a pretty hard time as i didnt want to block my rear view and my side view(safety driver, dont play play). after dropping gio off at her place to let her get ready, we went to find a place to develop a photo of bronson posing like Chun Li(street fighter character) to go with his card, but all shops that could were closed, so owe him 1st. lol. went to get a birthday cake for gio's sis as her birthday was on the 20th before going back to fetch her to bron's place. after the buffet, we each took a photo with him and our individual balloons, mine was barney(because the thing lao hong then they ask me take, bully me) =/ . i dont have the pics, its with bronson and gio, shall upload it when i get it from them. after that was to jac's place for mj, played till around 5am. during the game, her mum said something that made them all laugh, but i shall not say what it is. lol.
20/7
stayed home and slacked, good boy.
21/7
work, dinner at newton circus, thanks bronson for the $111 dinner. =) before reaching there and after leaving there got alot of interesting things happen in between, but im not gonna say what it is. lol. oh and i promised i wont speed above the limit of 130km/h, can keep to that cause the highest ive gone is only 120km/h, dont want to try it with my current car. hehe. ill oso check my blind spots and look out for traffic(i always do, remember im a safety driver).

alvin smsed me and asked me if i wanted to go to thailand in aug with anqi, but im already going to bangkok at the end of aug. lol. maybe get more people and we can meet there, make it a memorable trip before we enter NS~~(not that it wont be memorable with the 2 girls around)~~ . and again, 'no' clubbing for me. =p

2008-07-18T12:37:00.002+08:00

the things i hide inside
the words dont come out right
plenty of times i just wanted to make you laugh
but i ended up making you angry
i know you're a strong girl
but i want you to know you can also depend on me
im trying very hard to hold back
because ill be gone soon, 2 years to be exact
but he'll be there to take care and watch over you
when you're sad he'll be there to humour you
a sense of security is what you looking for
he got that, and even more

5 hours more, till its 6, only one person knows what will happen at that time. my gastric is killing me, its not that i didnt eat. zzzzz.. will i ever be complete..

2008-07-17T22:27:00.002+08:00

2, 4, 6, 8, wait wait stop, what's with the number counting
Writing and reading this should be a happy thing
This piece should give a positive feeling
I'd hum a tune with this, why, because I cant sing
Now this is really what I wanted to say
Hugs and kisses makes everybody's day
XOXO in short, written in another way
Don't stay in, the weather's good, come out to play

Hey girl, don't fret, smile
Even if it's just for awhile
Cause when you do, I'd walk a mile
To see you beaming, its all worthwhile
I'd do anything for that, its no denial
So girl, stay happy, smile

Flowers, trees, plants, they all bloom
But not as often as my mum asks me to clean my room
This so random, I know, but who cares, get the broom
Before I turn you to snail, or cast doom
The above line is for Maple's fans
I ain't one, but why be so tensed
We all play different games, it all depends
Its either games, or for now, love and romance

Hey girl, don't fret, smile
Even if it's just for awhile
Cause when you do, I'd walk a mile
To see you beaming, its all worthwhile
I'd do anything for that, its no denial
So girl, stay happy, smile

Damn I'm stuck, outta ideas
Thats what I'm afraid of, we, all got fears
But you got BIG, they be there to dry your tears
You ask where's the S, well I'm here warming the seat with my ass
Shall not go into that, shall not digress
BIGS, we try our best
Now lets introduce them, B for Bronson
Theres no doubt, everybody says he's more handsome
I agree, nah I aint gay, but I'd kidnap him for a ransom
OKOK, I'll stop with this nonsense
I for Ilynne, she's hot, as in HOTT
Spicy FIERCE hot, got 2 blu-blacks from her anger and fury
Noisy too, when you hear screaming and shouting, theres where she be
Hope she doesnt see this, or she'll come murder me
G for Giovanna, we be like Peter Pan
Dress in green outfit, green hat just to hold her hand
For her, I'll try to be Superman
I can't fly, but dress in blue and a red underwear, yes i can
There's something else about her I can't describe
If she a channel, fuck, I'll definitely subscribe
Finally, S for Shaun, thats me, I'm fine
Lots to say, but theres never enough time
So all I do, is indulge in rythm and rhyme

Hey girl, don't fret, smile
Even if it's just for awhile
Cause when you do, I'd walk a mile
To see you beaming, its all worthwhile
I'd do anything for that, its no denial
So girl, stay happy, smile

-Smile, Shaun

stay home sunday

2008-07-13T21:58:00.004+08:00

another sunday at home for me. lol. watched hancock last night with the rest of BIGS, pretty good show, comedy at some point. 'Good Job'. lol. before watching the show, we went to the arcade at P.S.. played this new game where you throw small balls at the screen to hit specific targets, quite fun. =o
heres another video, some of you might laugh at it, but others might find it boring. you decide. pardon the vulgarities.

caught cheating. -

Hey girl, dont fret, smile
Even if its just for awhile
Cause when you do, I'd walk a mile
To see you cheerful, its all worthwhile
I'd do anything to take away your sadness, its no denial
So girl, dont frown, be happy, smile.
-Smile(chorus), Ice

info of me horoscope

2008-07-11T11:42:00.011+08:00

(EDITED)*
ive never kept anything from you, everything you asked, i might have hesitated, but i still told you in the end. but whenever i ask you something, you just wont tell me. well, maybe im just too nosey, so from today onwards, if i ask you anything and you dont wanna tell me, i wont ask again, lest you think im a nuisance.

pretty bored at work, so went around looking for what my birthdate defined me as.
from http://www.personalityquiz.net/horoscopes/horoscopes2.htm#dove:

You have a happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy. Hypocrites can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love..

my view: everything true except the fall in love part. =x

from http://www.astrology.com.au/366bdays/profile.asp

Your personal ruling planets are Mercury and Moon.Though the Moon rules you and indicates many changes in your destiny, the double one provides you with the support of the self-confident Sun. You are highly independent in everything you do and usually find fortune through the changes that come your way. Your vibration is a master energy which if utilised properly can result in great successes though it is important to you to fight the inner demon of dejection. As Edison said " the success of my light globe only happened after 1,000 failed experiments".Always keep the company of uplifting people, lest your sensitive vibrations absorb the negative qualities of those around you. Hang around a cripple long enough - you develop a limp.Your lucky colours are cream and white and green.Your lucky gems are moonstone or pearl.Your lucky days of the week Monday, Thursday, Sunday.Your lucky numbers and years of important change are 2, 11, 20, 29, 38, 47, 56, 65, 74.

my view: cheeemmmm.. number 11 is my birthday, and this year im turning 20, what change would i make, my hairstyle to botak?? lol. who has birthdays that falls on 2, 11, 20, 29, pls come forward. =p

from http://www.azcentral.com/ent/horoscopes/infovirgo.html

Ancient Egyptians associated Virgo with the goddess Au Set (later known as Isis), who, among other things, taught women to grind corn. The Virgin, symbol of your sign, often holds an ear of grain, alluding to the harvest of late summer. You understand the harvest of hard work, which entails observation, measuring differences, tabulating details, memorizing data, systematizing and organizing methods of operation. Your love for order and harmony is revealed in the way you approach life. You function on a cerebral level, but because you're an earth sign, your mental approach is pragmatic. You want to see results, your own personal harvest.Your keyword is DISCRIMINATION. It's what you use to resolve the various conflicts you're faced with on a daily basis. Not much gets by you without questioning it, because you need to allocate a place and system for everything. You're perpetually in the assessment and preparation stages of making adjustments. You prefer to make your own decisions. Your process of judgment involves analyzing everything down to the last detail before taking action. You can be fault-finding and very sarcastic, but you are not naturally aggressive. Your poised, cool or retiring exterior is an indication of your need for inner peace.

my view: fault finding and sarcasm, true true, not naturally aggressive --- SO TRUE. inner peace, true i guess.

Everything i do, is never right,
I wanna care and protect, hold you tight,
And if I could, never let you out of my sight,
I wouldnt mind if you called, even late at night,
I'd talk with you, till darkness turns to light,
But you seem to be pushing me away, with all your might,
I hate to leave, at least not this way,
Till the day you totally turn away,
I'm not going anywhere, I'll stay.

new haircut

2008-07-09T22:09:00.013+08:00

7/7
got pay so it was off to chomp chomp with the rest of BIGS and teng yong, had the normal spicy dishes, could have had 7 eating instead of 5.. but.. i shant say anymore.. lol. after dinner was off to ice3 (ice cube) for ice cream. some pics.

(EDITED)* photo requested to be taken down by ling.

waffle ice cream.

choc fondue.(is that how its spelt?)

9/7
went to get a haircut today, tried something new, some pics.

ok i lied when i said i was botak on my nick. but i think i want to go and shave more hair off. lol.

somehow i got a bad feeling, a bad gut feeling, or a sixth sense feeling. my senses have never failed me so far, maybe my sense of direction but hey thats another story. i shall keep it to myself this time, no matter what happens, ill still be here, alive and kicking, me and rocky.
a video of me and wg role playing a few years ago. enjoy!

me n wg roleplaying -

and a pic of us a few years back.

want to see more? TAG ME! =)

emoooo

2008-07-07T16:02:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!! FUCKING CHAO CHEE BYE!!! KNN!! KNNB!! FUCK!! thank you blog space i just needed somewhere to vent my anger. i dont have any1 to spar with and my sandbag is too light, if i go to the arcade i have to pay $1 for 2 punches or $1 to lift a hammer and smash it into a panel. =x ok i can still joke at a time like this, at least im still sane. but i do realise all i can ever do it make her angry, thats not what i want to do.. it has never crossed my mind to make her angry. all i really want right now, is for her to be happy, no matter what she decides on, ill support her decision. if she wants to hit me, ill be her punching bag, because the bruises will go away, hopefully her sadness goes away with it as well. i might be afraid of the pain, but im more afraid of her getting angry, pain can be tolerated, but when a person reaches their max tolerance level, they go nuts, i been there, and i know it isnt fun.. at all.. please, bear with my nonsense for another 2 more months, i know sometimes i say the wrong things, but all men are jerks. =/ do know this though, if you ever need me, for any reason at any time,
i'll be there,
in blue and red underwear!(ok this part lame sorry im overstressed lah)

random

2008-07-06T20:06:00.002+08:00

4/7
went to dbl o on to celebrate lilin's birthday, went with teng yong, jiahui and gio. met with the others there. been a long time since i went somewhere with teng yong. haha. had a pretty fun night, i think i had a few 'battle scars' added to me that night. lol. there was this kinda big size guy wanting to dance with jiahui and gio, so me and teng yong just stood there and watched, but after awhile of being bored watching instead of dancing, we went up and danced behind them, when they each turned to face both of us, the guy just went off to dance somewhere else. lol. we werent too late ok!! =p apart from that nothing else interesting happened at the club. zzzz. decided to go to geylang to have supper at 126 again., on the way kena road block, luckily didnt drink alot. lol. it really feels good to have a car to drive around, although yes im still an idiot at directions.. i know.. sent them home after supper, reached home and slept at around 6 30. =x
5/7
met with the other BIGS at causeway point to meet jiahui for dinner, discussed abit about the trip that we planned for the end of August, better go somewhere before i enter NS.. =/ after dinner bronson, gio and i watched 'Its a boy girl thing', pretty ok show for me, would recommend it for couples, then you might understand how the opposite sex feels... maybe.. lol. after jiahui knocked off, came over to my place for mahjong, they left around 2 30. had another late night.
6/7
met bronson and jiahui for dinner, again at causeway point to further discuss the trip. tickets have been booked, just gotta save money to spend there. lol. gonna have an early night. work tomorrow, and maybe an ice cream treat for gio. promised to treat her ice cream when i get my pay. =)

If only I could,
Hold you tight in my arms I would,
I promise that I'll treat you good,
With respect, care and concern like an idividual should.
-If only I could
(short poem dedicated to you)

short post and a dedication

2008-07-03T21:36:00.003+08:00

30/6
went out with the rest of the BIGS group, went to catch 10 promises to my dog at vivo. pretty touching movie with some parts of humour, jiahui and gio were crying at some parts of the show, one of them was crying pretty loudly, shall not say who in case i kana from them. lol. the show made me realise some things, poor rocky, been neglecting him for quite long le. so now have to spend time with him before going NS, so should be staying home everyday other than work. that means no going out, no movies, no ECP, no CLUBBING. =(

1/7
guai kia came home had dinner with mum before going to sleep at 8 30pm.. yes.. 8 30pm.. got a call from jiahui at about 12am, called to joke with me!! kns!! i sleep until so sweet liao leh!! &$^#!

2/7
went to mindcafe at dhoby ghaut to play board games. was fun, played those games i nv played before, and jenga, where jiahui aka zilian lost both rounds, pics of how high the stack was at gio's blog. http://www.gio-vanna.blogspot.com/

a dedication to bryan aka yanjun and those feeling emo.

Things make you laugh or cry,
Decide to live or die,
Some words indirectly mean goodbye,
Mixed feelings make you feel outta control,
It might inevitably make you emo,
Emo to the point where its low,
No, actions and reactions aint for show.

Now here I am again talking bout everyday's stuff,
You just wanna enjoy, wanna feel the fluff,
But them hypocrites and backstabbers making it tough,
Whatever you say or do, they say you bluff,
Fuck them a-holes, theres never enough.

Things make you laugh or cry,
Decide to live or die,
Some words indirectly mean goodbye,
Mixed feelings make you feel outta control,
It might inevitably make you emo,
Emo to the point where its low,
No, actions and reactions aint for show.

Thinking back its been some time since you last seen them,
What the fuck they bringing shit like its a trend,
Cant these kids grow up, nah, dont think they can,
Them fuck pair already got what they want,
The girl's got a little dick to herself and the guy gets cunt,
Both cowards I'd bet when they see us they'd run,
Take 'em down easy dont need no guns.

Things make you laugh or cry,
Decide to live or die,
Some words indirectly mean goodbye,
Mixed feelings make you feel outta control,
It might inevitably make you emo,
Emo to the point where its low,
No, actions and reactions aint for show.

Ima tell you bout clubs,
Where you go when your day's fucked up,
Theres Zouk, shuffle bad and they'd call you a fluke,
Beside Zouk's phuture, do the C-walk and you might look cooler,
Now Dbl O, them chicks out on the floor,
Then to St James, when I'm there I dont play games.

These the clubs I been to,
Nobody knows the fucked up shit I been through,
No wait, this aint bout me, its bout my homie, its true,
Hang on mate, I'ma come get you.

Things make you laugh or cry,
Decide to live or die,
Some words indirectly mean goodbye,
Mixed feelings make you feel outta control,
It might inevitably make you emo,
Emo to the point where its low,
No, actions and reactions aint for show.

What the fuck, after all this i still feel emo,
Emo to the point where its low, so low..

-Emo to the point where its low, Ice

p.s ill support any decision you make, as long as you're happy.

life's much better with them

2008-07-01T16:23:00.009+08:00

im an idiot, a stupid idiot at that. i only know how to irritate people, go mia, misunderstand people and give shity advices. i realise my mistake now, but its too late to amend them now. i wont say more, im sorry.

Now heres a story about 2 girls,
Didnt know them long but they could rock your world.
One's named Ilynne the other's named Gio,
What im saying i think you'd know,
So lets jiggy baby on the dancefloor.

Ilynne's the bomb you gotta take to the prom,
Gio's the bling you'd wanna sing her a song.
Maybe its fate, how we get along,
No shit, this feeling cant be wrong.

Now wait, hang on,
I just realised i had forgotten someone,
He's the B man, how could i miss out Bronson,
The joker, we all laugh at his nonsense.

Dont know what else to say,
Ima skip a few lines to make way.
For my own intro, to make my day.
Hey mates, my name's Ice,
I like what i do, i do what i like,
Pack it up like i was taking a hike,
Piss me off and you'd have sparked the light,
Cause when i beef i pull an army to fight,
Get over here girl, sit on my right,
Take it to a higher level, lets go for a ride.

But recently Ive come to realise,
People come and go in my life,
Sometimes when they leave, its like i get cut by a knife,
Evidently, life's much better with them.

-Life's much better with them, Ice
(dedicated to BIGS)

weekly update

2008-06-29T22:31:00.005+08:00

had a pretty interesting week.
25/6
was supposed to go to st james at night, so met up with bronson and his 'dear dear' giovanna at vivo to catch a movie, The Happening, wouldnt recommend anybody who hasnt watched it to watch. lol. after the movie gio tried to call jiahui, but she didnt answer her phone even after trying like 4254253786 times. =/ so decided to head home, end up nxt day received sms frm 'dear' saying she was KOed.. kao go in less than 2hrs KO already..
27/6
met up with a few of the 4e1 group for prata dinner at lorong 8, after went to robin's house to play mahjong, was pretty lucky that night, made $9, wanted to treat the person that i was smsing as i thought she brought me luck.. but.... (to be continued)
28/6
soccer in the morning before lunch, then heading to P.S to catch Get Smart with jacjac and yanjun, pretty funny show, recommended to watch if you want a good laugh. =) after that headed to causewaypoint to meet up with gio to wait for 'dear dear aka gio's honey'. lol. met up with bronson later to have a late dinner before heading to somewhere in katong to sing K. sang from 12am to 2am, after that slacked and talked awhile before heading home.
29/6
went to mandai crematorium(dunnoe how to spell) to pray my grandfather's 3rd year death anniversary. after that came back to get ready to go to east coast park. bronson came down and we headed to aljunied to pick up the 2 pigs that woke up at around 12 30. lol. waited for like 20mins for them lah. tsk tsk. after that went to borrow bike, cycled for abit before something happened, wasnt there to see it happen but i only have pictures of the aftermath. =x

that is gio getting First Aid from some newbie St John's peeps.. (EDITED)* yes she fell.. she got knocked by a little girl who swerved into the bicycle lane at a quick speed, so in order to avoid her, gio braked and went over the side. thats how she fell. =o
after getting patched up, we carried on, we were cycling when jiahui cycled on 1st, so i said out loud, 'dear dear' leh, when bronson told me not to be er xin, i turned to smile at him and apparently the paddle on my bike flew out, i was like "fuck im gonna fall", but after some funny stunts i managed to land on my 2 feet, bronson and i were like laughing our heads out. cause he the only 1 that saw the whole process. LOL. after that was dinner at hong kong cafe before heading to my place for mahjong. man i lost today, almost $25, mostly to giovanna.. =( they didnt wanna take the money, awwww, a bunch of good guys.. lol. i love you all. HAHA.
some pics after the mahjong.

bronson, jiahui and gio.

bronson, me, jiahui and gio. (i've been in hairband the whole day, even at east coast)

me, bronson, jiahui and gio.

me, bronson, jiahui and gio. again.

us 4.

p.s 'dear dear' wants to 'divorce' me and split all the assets equally.. she already took my white cap!! =p

need sleep

2008-06-22T15:17:00.003+08:00

(EDITED)*

went to spaggedies for dinner tonight, took a few pics.

my dinner, vanilla milkshake.

bronson and jiahui(she stole my cap =/ ).

me and giovanna.

eplanade. bronson, jiahui and gio.

no comments. =x

once again. bronson, gio and jiahui.

me, gio and jiahui.

me gio and jiahui again. lol.
20/6
been quite a weekend for me, was supposed to go clubbing on friday night, already met up with my cousin and peers, already drank 2 milo ice, but i received a call from REDLOVES zilian aka jia hui asking me to go downtown east play bowling. i was like there goes my partying (being a gentleman and hearing that she sounds 'sad', had to go down. =x). so took a cab to outram park and then took a 30 mins train ride down to pasir ris, met jiahui and giovanna. went to the new shopping mall at downtown east to makan Superdog, 1st time eating, not bad. after that headed to bowl, jiahui wanted to play loser treat supper, so i obliged loh, was just a competition between me and her, and i end up winning all four games. =p was about 3am and as all of us stayed quite far apart from each other, i suggested taking cab to my place then i send them home, then they wanted to play mahjong, so called bronson to come after his zouking, played for abit then ate mac before we headed home. slept at 7 30 am.
21/6
bronson came over and we headed to yishun to fetch jiahui before heading to bugis, met up with gio over there and we went to house of steamboat for dinner, after dinner was pool for abit before going to watch Dont Mess With the Zohan. was a pretty funny show, 'let's go Disco!'. lol. after movie session went downtown to bowl again before heading to supper at tampines dunnoe where the prata house i think. haha. sent them home before heading home myself, reached home at 5 plus.. 2 late nights in a row.. soooo.. tired.. ugh.. work tomorrow, so boring. =(

Hannah is going overseas tomorrow, although i know you for a short while nia, i could say you make a pretty good friend. =) good luck for your trip (kinda forgotten what you going there for). stay safe, maybe let bronson know when you are there so he can tell us your're safe. ;)

late night supper

2008-06-19T14:24:00.004+08:00

was asked to go out to geylang for dim sum, they call it 126, but the shop got a mandarin name, which i also dont know how to read. so... bronson took a bus down to toa payoh to wait for me while i went to fill up on petrol, after that headed to yishun to pick up miss REDLOVES zi lian nokia promoshowgirl. been quite some time since i went back to yishun, other than monday night that is. zzzz. after that headed to tampines to pick up jia hui's friend, giovanna, then headed to geylang for dim sum, on the way i had to ask for directions, cause as you guys know, i just started driving less than a month ago.. and again kana suan cause dont know directions.. how i wished i could just stop at the expressway and throw jia hui off the car, just fetch bronson and gio. LOL. while eating i told zi lian that i charge $1 for every song, then she say for every directions asked i had to pay her $1, so instead i owe her money, and GPS also have to pay, but at least GPS wont tell me that im stupid to dont know directions!!! after sending gio home, went to play pool. some pics..

the stick holding a stick. =x

thats bronson.
oh yea bronson and me got called hunks, i was laughing my head off. lol. i know those of you reading this also laughing, which is good, liven up dont be so stressed, laughter helps. =) miss jia hui i know your little secret liao, so if you bully me again ill tell on you. haha. ;) by the way, the clubbing is confirmed for tomorrow night, so if any of you guys going clubbing, i might see you there, depending on where i go that is. lots of good movies coming up, and nobody to watch them with me, anybody wanna watch movies remember to jio me!!

with me

2008-06-17T22:36:00.005+08:00

(EDITED)*

went out for dinner with a nokia promoshowgirl last night, another brand of HP job scope.. lol. i was like why everybody work for HP brands. but all i see she did at her work place was stand there model herself, slacking and using handphone. tsk tsk. zzzz. went back to my old hometown to have western food. hard to find a girl that also likes beef. =x well, again i kana suan for not knowing the way, but its ok, im used to it, but why do both of you have to find out my weakness, and use it against me.. you know im afraid of ............. lol. well today is pretty boring, work and home for me, no appointments. sigh. so watched some tv before going down to wash my lovely 'wife'. =) sitting here uploading songs and then adding them to my blog (thanks to jacjac for sending me the song.. =) ), hopefully can attract more readers, wait i find pretty girls pics to post then should be got more. haha. anyways i be rockin with my cous at a club this friday, but which club i aint sure, if any of you going clubs we might meet. ;) maybe can hook up some girls, or some like to call it kio cai, hopefully i get lucky. lol. what is it with all this dont wanna get serious in case you end up getting hurt thingy nowadays, is it true? i shall try it out, fling fling fling-a-ling, fling with 'em ding-a-lings, fling and take a swing, over to me babe and then down for some ***king.
DISREGARD THE FLING SHIT, IT AINT ME. LOL.
stay and listen to the music, first few songs might make you emo, but the rest will make ya worries zero, after that you will feel like a hero!

short update of my life

2008-06-15T21:49:00.003+08:00

firstly, im back to having brown hair. thought id dye it brown again cause someone said i looked better with brown hair.

forced smile.

ladyboy zi lian.

do i look pretty femine here? ;)
went for father's day dinner at Novatel(dunnoe how to spell). few selection of food for a high class buffet. hmm.
14th June
sent rocky to the vets to get his teeth scaled, total cost $260. after that slacked at home till 6 and then went down to get my hair colored, picked wayne and robin up then headed to balestier to pick guang, went chong pang steamboat at Boon Keng. after that headed back to toa payoh to play a little bit of soccer, ah pui came down for awhile, main purpose was to borrow my car. received a call from him about 2am+ say my car clutch koyak. zzzz. end up now my poor car have to send to workshop to repair. aint gonna lend anybody my car anymore unless im beside them when they driving. cause of this i couldnt send a pretty lady to her chalet. tsk tsk. lol.

was i doing everything in a rush? i think so, but do you really have to treat me like this? at least tell me what i have done wrong so i can make ammendments. but since you have decided to use the avoiding method(seems this is a very useful move, used by 2 girls that i once cared alot about), i shall leave you be, stay happy always, you have good friends that care alot about you.

nopast,onlythefuture

2008-06-14T23:52:00.004+08:00

new life for me. no more heartbreaks. no more shaun. only wen jun the guai kia is left!

Libra and Virgo
When Virgo and Libra join together in a love match, it can be like puting two puzzle pieces together. Each locks into the other and sits comfortably in place. Both Signs seek security in partnership, and they share a love of beauty and culture. They can work together efficiently and smoothly because they desire similar rewards. The Virgo-Libra relationship may trickle along in the beginning, but it will rev up once both partners grow to respect one another.
Virgo and Libra both appreciate superficial pleasures, and they often enjoy collecting bone china, art or photographs. They also enjoy the theater and all forms of art. Practicality and pleasure are important to both Signs, and they compliment one another in many ways. Virgo appreciates Libra's charm and diplomacy, and Libra can even things out when Virgo doesn't get their way. Libra appreciates the Virgo love of order and the tangible rewards that come with it. Additionally, Libra and Virgo are willing and able to see the different sides of an argument, and together they make decisions only after examining the facts.

Virgo and Pisces
When Virgo and Pisces join together in a love match, it generally makes for a healthy relationship. The two Signs are opposite one another within the Zodiac, and such Signs tend to be well balanced, one making up for qualities the other lacks. They are an easy-going, do-gooding duo, and often devote their time to helping others as well as one another. Each partner in this couple brings out the best aspects in the other.
Both Signs dote on and adore one another. They strive for a harmonious relationship and are very accepting and sympathetic people. Virgo can help Pisces fulfill dreams and ambitions and give them the tools they need to turn ideas into reality. Virgo will provide a solid, steady base for the more emotional and intuitive Fish. On the other hand, Pisces offers a gentle touch, kindness and an emotional depth that Virgo appreciates. Virgo is interested in material comforts and at times cannot understand the simplistic attitude of Pisces. Their life's aspirations can be very different. Once they can accept and overcome this difference, and learn to combine their energies, theirs will be a very rewarding relationship.